Through The Eyes of Chad

My journey living with HIV, Addiction, Loss and Hope

2020, Death, COVID, Gratitude, New Beginnings, Friendships

As 2020 comes to an end, and as I wake up today on the 3rd anniversary of my mom’s death, I want to take a moment to reflect on the year. Each year dealing with my mom’s death changes a bit. I miss her more than ever and there isn’t Read more…


After So Many Years…Why is it so hard?

October 3, 2018 It has been over 8 years since I fled California.  It is interesting to think about it now. At the time nothing was clear, but today I can say I was fleeing.  I was running away from myself. I was running away from the very real destruction Read more…


Why have I gotten so far away from the ability to be vulnerable…

February 16, 2018 “How do you feel so empty? That you wanna let it all go?  How do you get that lonely, and nobody know?”  These are lyrics from a song by Blaine Larsen.  It’s interesting since I have lost my mom, I have felt myself slip into that sort Read more…


Gratitude & The Start of my Addiction

“Life is not about you, Your life is about all of the people around you. Your life is about all the people you can touch. All the people you can impact. All the people you can influence. All the people you can love. All the people that love you. That Read more…