Tomorrow I have a second interview with a company. I hope that I get the job. It would be a great opportunity for me. Tonight as I lay down I will surrender to my higher powers plan for me. If I get the job then I was meant to get it, if I do not get it then I know I was not ready. I will have faith that my higher power will guide me with his will and give me the power to follow it. I will continue to keep my recovery front and center and remember that I am one step away from active addiction. I will continue to choose freedom. I will surrender my life to a power greater than myself. I am so grateful to those who support me in my recovery. I am grateful for my family and friends and the fellowship of NA who loves me irregardless of the things I did in my active addiction. Those things were actions that will not define me. I may carry the scars forever, but I can rise above all of that.
I may not love myself today, I may not even like myself, but I do know that I deserve freedom from this addiction. I deserve to live a happy life. In time I will right the wrongs and clean my side of the road. How others react to that is out of my control.
I have faith that my higher power will keep me close to his heart and hold me when I can’t rise to the occasion on my own.